Maybe in the future

Strangers are people that we've yet to met. But how long would it take for me to unmask these strangers and let them be my friends? And let you know i exist.
I feel you in my heart and i dont even know you - Tegan/Sara: Nineteen

Roll the ballsssssss

I aint no rights to ask for forgiveness or understanding. It' really my fault, i cant say anything, anymore. No point crying over spilled milk. It's the fact i cant promote to j2. It's the fact i wasted a year. Mock at me for all you want. I dont need people to secretly laugh at me behind me back. :) Cus i think if you do, you're such a loser.

No, dont let me fall back into the cycle of choosing poly courses. I will stay in SRJC. Not because i love the school or the people, but i'd rather try another year than to waste it.
Kally, stand firm, dont sway.

Shall be real busy for the next few days. And Alevels chinese is just 2 days away. 1st November 2010 ):

Ellie Goulding : The Writer

Between Two Lungs

I'm not gonna care who i am for these few days.
Allow me to let loose of myself, allow me to get rebellious.
Dont ask me why, cus i hate this.
I'll say if i want to, this is me, get it?
It's ok if you dont tell me, i wont force you, i'll let you tell me, yourself.

W're young, w run free, stay up late, we dont sleep. W'll be allllllllright.

xx

Your words were true. You win.
No one knows how badly i wish to cry. It's not just about being emo, gaining sympathy, acting pitiful. It's just tears rolling down, cus i had no control over them. I hadn't been myself for a year. And since then, i'm always lost in whatever i do. I made the biggest mistake in my life. It's worst than how retainees feel, as i know that i'm not even suited for jc life. I wasted a year. I asked myself, but i aint any answer to what i've learnt/gained so far.
Mum, let me go. I cant explain to you how uncomfortable or awful i felt in this year alone. It wasnt just academics, it was more than this.
Here i am, i'm sorry for disappointing you.
i'm sorry for being such a useless daughter.
i'm sorry for being dumb that i achieved nothing.
I'm in a dillema. And i have to solve it myself. No one knows how i feel. No wrong.

Change

I'd rather we talk things out. Then to be strangers. Fine, maybe Im thinking too much, but Im trying hard to ignore whatever ill-feelings and awful emotions i have. I questioned you, you said no. Alright, so be it. Im not gonna let myself get bothered anymore, it's worthless. I admit it was my fault, but what happened next? I cant seem to figure out & i wont waste my time. Goodbye. I'll get used to it, but i wont let myself walk back in anymore. I'll stay in my circle, Dont step in, dont pull me out. Dont ever try. Dont piss me/yourself.

10/10/10

It's the perfect ten today; 10/10/10. But what do i have to look forward to?
At the toughest/darkest moments of your life, He will be there for you. I trust that He will, so let me have that faith to walk the journey with You.

HURTS - Wonderful Life

Le Moustache

I think moustache is the trend now. I have no idea why i posted the last picture, prolly cus this butch looks awesome.
Any idea how you would become in the future? All of a sudden, i fear death, i fear old. I dont wish so, but i know i cant defy it. Unless, i die right now. It's been couple of weeks since i last visited my granny staying in the nursing home. & i know, 8 out of 10 elderly will die there. Yes, they did. Just few weeks and most are gone like that. This fear brought me tears, for days, and no one knows.
Ive so much to do, so much to say, so much to see, so much to breathe.Now, i dont wish to die young.

Hands

Two hands, i wanna play the beat with only two hands. Clap your hands if you're working too hard.

Robyn - Dancing On My Own