Goodbye Singapore

I'm leaving Singapore tmr morning! I got excited yesterday night, and my luggage is in a real mess. I seriously do not know how to pack my luggage.
Here are the details!
Departing @ 940; SQ856 T3R10
Arriving @ 1330; SQ863 (Bump into me @ 1720 in Sg!)

Alright, other than Hong kong, i dont know what else to say already. Anyway there are so many things i'm gonna buy there, which i hope i have the time. Yeah.

This is all! Bye beloved singapore, Hello Hongkong! :D
p/s: gonna be seeing my elder brother and his wifeyyyyyy tmr night.

No, you're underage my dear.

It's friday. Which means i'm left with 2 more days before i fly to HK. Feels a little unreal that i'm really gonna be overseas for the first time, via plane. To be honest, i've not yet packed a single thing, neither has i planned any. The only thing in my mind right now, is that i wish to recover asap. Maybe i'm just mentally unwell, HAHA. Ohwell whatever, there's nothing for me to be mentally ill anyway.

The sec 4 kidssssssssss are done with their Os & them crazily partying like mad makes me wanna laugh out loud. Thats how we used to behave. But now that i'm 17 and looking at people younger than me, i tend to go like this:" Ohwell, it's just Os whuttttt, no big deal. It's not end of your life yet, chill~" HAHA seriously. Oh && did i not say, youngsters nowadays are dressing way off their age. Why do they ever want to make themselves look so overly mature?! Believe me or not, i've not tried make up just for outings with friends or somewhat gatherings. As in, i dont even have a make up kit @ home, which i think youngsters as young as primary school kid has one(their very own make up kit, not their mama's)?!

Fine, enough of youngsters. Imma enjoy my days in Singapore. And start planning for my outfit and stuffs of such for the 7D6N trip. Woohoo! J Khong, roomeeeeeeeee ftw! :D

Go away!

Stomach rebelling. Giddy after meals. Headaches on & off. Shoulders cranking.
Abnormal much. There's nothing much i can do online. Heading back to school for CCA today. Srgce presentation rehearsal tmr. Relationship seminar & cca on friday. I dont really love school that much though. Shant say much, i need to sleep.
If i ever know whuttttt's worth it hurting so much.

Future thinking, think think think

What's my future like? How great would it be?
Catched 3 dramas within a month during this hols. So unusual of me.

So many things going through my head. I just dont wish to talk.

Lazypig

I dont want to go for CCA.
I need motivation in my life srsly, lazing around all day long isnt't helping me at all. But i cant find any motivation to stop lazing around. This is killing me so much. I need to do something meaningful. Someone save me. I wont mind studying actl, but i just freaking cant ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

Imma lazybum

I'm done with HMS, with quite a few exciting episodes missing here and there. Somehow annoyed but well it's okay.
Whuttttttsup this week. Quite a boring week cus i'm relunctant to leave house unless it's some school stuffs. Gonna be a week more before i get my ass on the airplane, to HK! Yayness much, as i've never been on a plane, never before. Just so i realise, there's so many stuffs that i need to buy/borrow. So broke yet so much to buy, oh Lord! :/ Whatever, i believe it'll work out well sometime later this week(:
So i'll be stuck home watching dramas or reading my haruki murakami's book. So geeky, but i likeeeeeeeee!

Listening to Greyson Chance's song - Waiting outside the lines \m/

Ellie Goulding - Under The Sheets

Fetish

I'm feeling so uncomfortable and the menses cramp and backaches are killing me real loads.
Had so much random thoughts that flashed through my head when i'm stuck at home today. So let me address them one by one.
(1) I realise, people do not know me well enough.
It's either because they dont care or i'm not giving them more of me.

(2) What's the world becoming to?
It's either the world is too fast for me to adapt or i'm just being a bitch right here.

(3) I'm being more and more insecure.
I've got no answer to this, but there's so many things i hate about myself. Simply because i hate the person i am right now. I wish the old me was still here, and i was still the old kally. But hell yeah, i know it wouldn't be the same anymore. I wont force myself to revert back to the old me one year back. I cant do anything much if people wants to leave. In the first place, i doubt i've opened the door to any yet.

(4) I have a fetish for geeky guys and tall guys. (Y)
They make my heart skipped a little whenever i see any. Will my boyf be of such type? Certainly yesssssssss, but you know, whatever criteria girls are setting now, their ultimate boyf will never hit any of the criteria they once set. LOL.

I feel like i've made alot of choices i am regretting right now. And i cant find someone to talk to. The only one could be myself. I'm throwing everything into my own heart.