I'm feeling so uncomfortable and the menses cramp and backaches are killing me real loads.
Had so much random thoughts that flashed through my head when i'm stuck at home today. So let me address them one by one.
(1) I realise, people do not know me well enough.
It's either because they dont care or i'm not giving them more of me.
(2) What's the world becoming to?
It's either the world is too fast for me to adapt or i'm just being a bitch right here.
(3) I'm being more and more insecure.
I've got no answer to this, but there's so many things i hate about myself. Simply because i hate the person i am right now. I wish the old me was still here, and i was still the old kally. But hell yeah, i know it wouldn't be the same anymore. I wont force myself to revert back to the old me one year back. I cant do anything much if people wants to leave. In the first place, i doubt i've opened the door to any yet.
(4) I have a fetish for geeky guys and tall guys. (Y)
They make my heart skipped a little whenever i see any. Will my boyf be of such type? Certainly yesssssssss, but you know, whatever criteria girls are setting now, their ultimate boyf will never hit any of the criteria they once set. LOL.
I feel like i've made alot of choices i am regretting right now. And i cant find someone to talk to. The only one could be myself. I'm throwing everything into my own heart.
