Beautiful Hangover

I said i would make 2011 a better year, and i'm working my way out and i'll make it thru. People dont stay, and they change. People leave you, people hurt you, people betray you. It's what one has to experience in their life. Met that, just move on. I dont care the memories that we once have, i wont cherish them cus i know you dont. I dont wanna be a fool trying to grasp hold of memories that people think it's rubbish, and they dont care a hoot about it.

To be harsh, maybe they aint worth my time. Cus i know that's what they think and thus why our relationship turned bad, turned sour, etc. But whatever it is, thank them for the happy moments that we once had. And goodbye!(: I'm sure i'll live a better and happier life than they are.

I met a new friend today<3 It's how amazing within an hour, we became so close. Really, amazingly! Yes, and she's nicole(: It's really God's plan for us to knw each other today, and shared so much with one another. You know, when you really meet someone you have so much common interest in, and you really feel comfortable with, you wont wanna let go. And you need to build trust really fast. Likewise, that's how athirah and i became bestest friend since we met for our hongkong trip.

Some people you can never click with, some whom you cant talk much with, and well many more other types. Cant means cant. No matter how hard you try, also WONT WORK. So far, so good. I'm loving 2011 cus of the friends i met/knew.

So what

You know what, it's been 3 weeks since the start of school. And i've been attending school for the past 3 weeks which retainees from other JC don't.

Frankly speaking, rather awesome actually. Not all the times but somehow lah.

I chance upon someone's twitter and happen to read this particular tweet she/he tweeted:"Retaining isn't something big, stop harping on it!" Should just remind myself that it's no big deal and heck care what others think about me. Stop feeling so inferior and walks around with low self-esteem sometimes.

Oh yeah, and you know what. I dont think i would ever understand human beings until the day i die. All i could say is that i see fakers all around. I see them even before i step into the society. Wtf, i wish they never existed. And sometimes i really thought hard, and wonder why God created them in the first place. What could we learn from them?



Seeing you being upset that the girl you like is attached with someone else.
There's nothing i can do, just like how i cant do anything to let you know my feelings.

whysoserious

Damn, tmr's school starting. Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow.
I'm not ready, not yet. I guess i'll feel kind of lost and insecure tmr when i'm in school. I'd love to make friends and everything. But still, i get this feeling i'm dump into an unknown land, with strangers all around you, no familiar faces. I dont have the feeling that i used to have when i wanted a new environment.

“  感觉还在，
   但你已经不在了。”

New 2011

It's definitely obvious 2011 is a new year i've never been through before. Oh wait, HAPPY NEW YEAR!(:

I really am so sorry for the late wishing, cus i was unable to use the computer for quite some time. I spent my last 2 days of 2010, and the first day of 2011 with my bunch of secondary school bandmates. The last piece of memory i would ever forget would be the memories i had throughout the 4 years of band life. Be it good or bad memories, i wouldn't want to forget them.

And i got drunk, for the first time in my 17 years of life. It was bad. I never wanna get drunk anymore. Taking shots of vodka again? No way, i dislike vodka. Ohgay, and maybe i should start saving money so that next time i can drink wine instead.

Writing up some new year resolutions, and here it goes:

(1) First on the list is to be a friend that everyone needs. I must relate to every single one, as far as possible. I drifted away from many of them in year 2010, which goes to say my 2010 was an emptiness. Yes, very much actually. It'd be okay if they dont feel or act the way i wanted, but at least i know i did play my part as a friend that they would need, individually. Yeah, my first resolution.

(2) Another part about is about responsibility. HAHA, friends who know me in secondary school would probably know that i reply texts like pretty fast, which is b'cus i always hold onto my phone wherever i go. But believe it or not, it was a major 360 degrees change when i stepped into 2010. But whatever it is, i'll make it a point to check my phone regularly and reply texts, and well, also to kick away the habit of No Answering Phone Calls. I'll try, but it's really hard i dont know why.
      Next would be towards my family members. Always to inform them about my whereabouts.

(3) Not yet about studies! Ahah! Lol. It's my weight issue, in other words, my laziness. Time to slim down, and check on my diet. Less on oily and fried food. Ought to eat more veges, fruits and the soups that my mum always prepare for dinners.

(4) And here it is, my studies! I dont know how, and i dont know why, but most of my friends know that i'm retaining in JC. I thought i could keep it just within my jc friends, and just within the school compound. But well nevermind. Like the saying which goes “ 纸是包不住火”Since i'll be having more time, as i wouldnt be taking chinese and project work anymore, i should have more time to study. Time management, baby ): Yes, Lesser time on day dreaming and lepaking, which is a total waste of time, but also something which i cant help but do. Passing all my tests, IS A MUST. Midyears i should score at least 45 points? Well, for promos, i aim for 60 points. I have to, and i really must. I'm a retainee, who had an extra year on top of those jc 1 which the school is gonna accept soon.