Your words were true. You win.
No one knows how badly i wish to cry. It's not just about being emo, gaining sympathy, acting pitiful. It's just tears rolling down, cus i had no control over them. I hadn't been myself for a year. And since then, i'm always lost in whatever i do. I made the biggest mistake in my life. It's worst than how retainees feel, as i know that i'm not even suited for jc life. I wasted a year. I asked myself, but i aint any answer to what i've learnt/gained so far.
Mum, let me go. I cant explain to you how uncomfortable or awful i felt in this year alone. It wasnt just academics, it was more than this.
Here i am, i'm sorry for disappointing you.
i'm sorry for being such a useless daughter.
i'm sorry for being dumb that i achieved nothing.
I'm in a dillema. And i have to solve it myself. No one knows how i feel. No wrong.
