Mad woman

Time supposingly spent on chemistry were now diverted to online window screen shopping! So many things i wanna buy for myself, my family members or friend(s). Take a peek!

This Ray-ban specs i've been wanting for damn long already!!!
Must definitely be this colour!!! It would be better if the frame could be slightly thinner :)





This laptop sleeve from Snupped.com!!! It's only 34.90SGD including mailing.
I know i dont have a personal laptop but i just want it cus of the nice design that i can customise myself, and for me to put lectures notes/sheets of papers when i go to school :)

This lego waterbottle beri beri unique & cute right?
I chanced upon this on Bloomsbury Store (Online). Wanted to purchase it & give it to my friend as her belated birthday present.

For my elder brother :) Cute stuff he could pin on, on the wedding dinner night.

And this, obviously for my cute korean sis-in-law :)

Women's white plimsolls from Lacoste!!! 89SGD selling hot at rockstar currently. Cant wait to grab it srsly cus i really need a new pair of shoes! :)

Grey Shabd tote from Baggu

Blush Shabd tote from Baggu
Which one to get? If it aint available over at Rockstar, i'd prolly get them online!!! :)

Alright, done with my obsessions with the stuffs i wanna buy. Wait till i got to spend the money, i'd think a million times harder than i am right now. Who would want to part from their money, when they are already so broke? )'; 

I NEED TONS/MILLIONS/GAZILLIONS OF MONEY (SINGAPORE NOTES) NOW!!! 

Always my fault

I dont see why some people or should i say most, cant take simple jokes or little playings. We all know that it was just a mere simple minor laughter that we all need. If you wanna say because i'm not the one who's being played the joke on, then i'm sorry to say, YOU ARE VERY FWRONG. It's through experiences that i know if my retardness/naiveness can bring my true friends joy, i wouldnt mind them playing jokes on me. What's more, life without any jokes is just A PLAIN JANE (boring).

Does anyone get what i'm trying to say? Sad to say, your tweet just pierce through my heart, to know that we were once that close. And right now, we're further than the distance between pluto & earth. Remembering those days when i tried to compromise you by restricting myself to certain issues so that you wouldn't feel awkward. But after all these while, i realise i'm been giving in too much and i'm not receiving any.

It all brings me back to my father's favv sentence "No friend stays forever"
Just hope someone understands from my point of view.

The last straw

I'm really annoyed by the fact that human beings ignore human beings. Wtf, i really dont know how anyone else can do it. Not as if that person were someone you hated or disliked? Kay fine, enough kally grow up. Maybe these people just acquired some unique & special skills, given from the God. Whatever.

Last straw for me, i'm lenient to everyone now. I'm patient now. Tolerating every piece of shit everyone is giving me, showing me, telling me or throwing to me? I'll take it all, and swallow my pride deep down. Please allow me to build up the stamina and maintain it. Really wanna do well for my midyears and attain as much As as possible please. At least a rank points of 54?

Kally, always loving you Lord

I am

I cried.
I realise how alone i'm standing. I've got no one to turn to, i dont choose because i cant even choose. Everyone's busy.

But i'm right here tearing and feeling pain. Pain that i cant describe in words.
I dont know why i cried, just all of a sudden, while the conductor speaks. I just feel annoyed and sad and pissed and guilty, just a lot of mixed feelings. I knew i had to say something to save the current situation, but reality speaks that i'm no longer a leader. Who would bother listening to me? So to speak, i'm afraid and frightened. It's barely less than a month to SYF.

I'm torn apart. Blame me, blame me for being who i am. A fucking fat girl who aint guts to say things out, who aint any initiative to tell friends how i feel, aint smart to tell others they've misunderstood me.

Someday when i get tired of life like this, i dont care if i'm young or incapable. I would really runaway from home. To somewhere where i know nobody. Maybe,..... heaven or hell

New term

It's march already.
And in no time, it'll be april. I'm 3 months into year 2011.

I was asked a simple question and had so much to ponder about. Remember your friends whom you were so close with in primary school/secondary school? Where are they now? People change as time passes, as the environment changes. The friends i once held on to were no longer here. No faults, no blames. It's just the nature. I make new friends every year, but ultimately, none stayed on. Sorry to say this, but i cant trust friends like how i trust myself.

Rhythms

People dont see that they dont change as much as they think they've changed.