Rhythms

People dont see that they dont change as much as they think they've changed.

Misunderstood

Many times, i felt that people misunderstood me. They seriously do. But i do not know how to explain to them. I wonder if explaining is even necessary, or would it make things worst. Some things i said were from a different point of perspective. I mean what i said. But it's a different thing i'm talking about. And sometimes, i dont even know what i'm saying.

I dont wish to be led by the nose. I dont wanna. I'm kally, i'm myself.

Miny tiny bottle

No, i dont find myself weird. But i do find others being weird. Make no sense? Pretty much illogical.
I always blame it on the different brains that every single human beings have. Thus the different perspective on the same issue. I grew to realise how a small little thing can affect my mood, my life. I say words i should not say, sometimes. I do things i should not do, few times.
I'm a bottle. Named kally the dumbass. I bottle up my emotions and words and actions. I fear to show them, for i know no one understands me. Even if they pretend they do, i myself know that, THEY DONT. This bottle is then left stranded on an island, not abandoned, but filled with human beings. So crowded (even though i dont like crowded places, but i cant choose whr i wanna be) that i am suffocated in the tiny little bottle. No one cares, no one feels for you, no one throw a glance at you.
All i ever wanted was real concern and feelings. No sympathy, no pretendance. But you know, i know, we all know. It's never gonna occur. Prolly in your sweet dream.

xx

Lost & deserted

I'm searching for someone i can lean on.
There's just so many things i dont get it, i dont understand.
Yet everyone refuses to answer the doubts i have.

You know it's a mask you see, yet you cant expose.
You know there's another side but you cant reveal.

I'm just exhausted when people get the wrong idea. I'm tired of explaining, cus i know they wont believe. They wont bother to listen even if i say.

I'm fat.
I'm one who can throw her bloody phone away.
I'm irritating?
I dont know, maybe people around are so fuckin perfect i have yet to realise.

I'm the bad guy, i will always fucking be one. Oh yeah.

Beautiful Hangover

I said i would make 2011 a better year, and i'm working my way out and i'll make it thru. People dont stay, and they change. People leave you, people hurt you, people betray you. It's what one has to experience in their life. Met that, just move on. I dont care the memories that we once have, i wont cherish them cus i know you dont. I dont wanna be a fool trying to grasp hold of memories that people think it's rubbish, and they dont care a hoot about it.

To be harsh, maybe they aint worth my time. Cus i know that's what they think and thus why our relationship turned bad, turned sour, etc. But whatever it is, thank them for the happy moments that we once had. And goodbye!(: I'm sure i'll live a better and happier life than they are.

I met a new friend today<3 It's how amazing within an hour, we became so close. Really, amazingly! Yes, and she's nicole(: It's really God's plan for us to knw each other today, and shared so much with one another. You know, when you really meet someone you have so much common interest in, and you really feel comfortable with, you wont wanna let go. And you need to build trust really fast. Likewise, that's how athirah and i became bestest friend since we met for our hongkong trip.

Some people you can never click with, some whom you cant talk much with, and well many more other types. Cant means cant. No matter how hard you try, also WONT WORK. So far, so good. I'm loving 2011 cus of the friends i met/knew.

So what

You know what, it's been 3 weeks since the start of school. And i've been attending school for the past 3 weeks which retainees from other JC don't.

Frankly speaking, rather awesome actually. Not all the times but somehow lah.

I chance upon someone's twitter and happen to read this particular tweet she/he tweeted:"Retaining isn't something big, stop harping on it!" Should just remind myself that it's no big deal and heck care what others think about me. Stop feeling so inferior and walks around with low self-esteem sometimes.

Oh yeah, and you know what. I dont think i would ever understand human beings until the day i die. All i could say is that i see fakers all around. I see them even before i step into the society. Wtf, i wish they never existed. And sometimes i really thought hard, and wonder why God created them in the first place. What could we learn from them?



Seeing you being upset that the girl you like is attached with someone else.
There's nothing i can do, just like how i cant do anything to let you know my feelings.